THE SISTERS
From James Joyce’s ‘Dubliners’
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THERE WAS NO hope for him this time: it was the third stroke. Night after
night I had passed the house (it was vacation time) and studied the lighted
square of window: and night after night I had found it lighted in the same way,
faintly and evenly. If he was dead, I thought, I would see the reflection of
candles on the darkened blind for I knew that two candles must be set at the
head of a corpse. He had often said to me: “I am not long for this world,” and
I had thought his words idle. Now I knew they were true. Every night as I gazed
up at the window I said softly to myself the word paralysis. It had
always sounded strangely in my ears, like the word gnomon in the Euclid and the word simony in
the Catechism. But now it sounded to me like the name of some maleficent and
sinful being. It filled me with fear, and yet I longed to be nearer to it and
to look upon its deadly work.
Old Cotter was sitting at the fire, smoking, when I came downstairs to
supper. While my aunt was ladling out my stirabout he
said, as if returning to some former remark of his:
“No, I wouldn't say he was exactly…but there was something queer… there
was something uncanny about him. I'll tell you my opinion…”
He began to puff at his pipe, no doubt arranging his opinion in his
mind. Tiresome old fool! When we knew him first he used to be rather
interesting, talking of faints and worms;
but I soon grew tired of him and his endless stories about the distillery.
“I have my own theory about it,” he said. “I think it was one of those…
peculiar cases…But it's hard to say…”
He began to puff again at his pipe without giving us his theory. My
uncle saw me staring and said to me:
“Well, so your old friend is gone, you'll be sorry to hear.”
“Who?” said I.
“Father Flynn.”
“Is he dead?”
“Mr. Cotter here has just told us. He was passing by the house.”
I knew that I was under observation so I continued eating as if the news
had not interested me. My uncle explained to old Cotter.
“The youngster and he were great friends. The old chap taught him a
great deal, mind you; and they say he had a great wish for him.”
“God have mercy on his soul,” said my aunt piously.
Old Cotter looked at me for a while. I felt that his little beady black
eyes were examining me but I would not satisfy him by looking up from my plate.
He returned to his pipe and finally spat rudely into the grate.
“I wouldn't like children of mine,” he said, “to have too much to say to
a man like that.”
“How do you mean, Mr. Cotter?” asked my aunt.
“What I mean is,” said old Cotter, “it's bad for children. My idea is:
let a young lad run about and play with young lads of his own age and not be…Am
I right, Jack?”
“That's my principle, too,” said my uncle. “Let him learn to box his
corner. That's what I'm always saying to that Rosicrucian there: take exercise.
Why, when I was a nipper every morning of my life I had a cold bath, winter and
summer. And that's what stands to me now. Education is all very fine and
large…Mr. Cotter might take a pick of that leg mutton,” he added to my aunt.
“No, no, not for me,” said old Cotter.
My aunt brought the dish from the safe and put it on the table.
“But why do you think it's not good for children, Mr. Cotter?” she
asked.
“It's bad for children,” said old Cotter, “because their minds are so
impressionable. When children see things like that, you know, it has an
effect…”
I crammed my mouth with stirabout for fear I might give utterance to my
anger. Tiresome old red-nosed imbecile!
It was late when I fell asleep. Though I was angry with old Cotter for
alluding to me as a child, I puzzled my head to extract meaning from his
unfinished sentences. In the dark of my room I imagined that I saw again the
heavy grey face of the paralytic. I drew the blankets over my head and tried to
think of Christmas. But the grey face still followed me. It murmured, and I
understood that it desired to confess something. I felt my soul receding into
some pleasant and vicious region; and there again I found it waiting for me. It
began to confess to me in a murmuring voice and I wondered why it smiled
continually and why the lips were so moist with spittle. But then I remembered
that it had died of paralysis and I felt that I too was smiling feebly as if to
absolve the simoniac of his sin.
The next morning after breakfast I went down to look at the little house
in Great Britain Street. It was an unassuming shop, registered under the vague
name of Drapery. The Drapery consisted mainly of
children's bootees and umbrellas; and on ordinary days a notice used to hang in
the window, saying: Umbrellas Re-covered. No notice was visible now
for the shutters were up. A crape bouquet was tied to the doorknocker with
ribbon. Two poor women and a telegram boy were reading the card pinned on the
crape. I also approached and read:
July 1st, 1895
The Rev. James Flynn (formerly of S.
Catherine's Church,
Meath Street), aged sixty-five years.
R. I. P.
The reading of the card persuaded me that he was dead and I was
disturbed to find myself at check. Had he not been dead I would have gone into
the little dark room behind the shop to find him sitting in his arm-chair by
the fire, nearly smothered in his
great-coat. Perhaps my aunt would have given me a packet of High Toast
for him and this present would have roused him from his stupefied doze. It was
always I who emptied the packet into his black snuff-box for his hands trembled
too much to allow him to do this without spilling half the snuff about the
floor. Even as he raised his large trembling hand to his nose little clouds of
smoke dribbled through his fingers over the front of his coat. It may have been
these constant showers of snuff which gave his ancient priestly garments their
green faded look for the red handkerchief, blackened, as it always was, with
the snuff-stains of a week, with which he tried to brush away the fallen
grains, was quite inefficacious.
I wished to go in and look at him but I had not the courage to knock. I
walked away slowly along the sunny side of the street, reading all the
theatrical advertisements in the shop-windows as I went. I found it strange
that neither I nor the day seemed in a mourning mood and I felt even annoyed at
discovering in myself a sensation of freedom as if I had been freed from something
by his death. I wondered at this for, as my uncle had said the night before, he
had taught me a great deal. He had studied in the Irish college in Rome and he
had taught me to pronounce Latin properly. He had told me stories about the
catacombs and about Napoleon Bonaparte, and he had explained to me the meaning
of the different ceremonies of the Mass and of the different vestments worn by
the priest. Sometimes he had amused himself by putting difficult questions to
me, asking me what one should do in certain circumstances or whether such and
such sins were mortal or venial or only imperfections. His questions showed me
how complex and mysterious were certain institutions of the Church which I had
always regarded as the simplest acts. The duties of the priest towards the
Eucharist and towards the secrecy of the confessional seemed so grave to me
that I wondered how anybody had ever found in himself the courage to undertake
them; and I was not surprised when he told me that the fathers of the Church had
written books as thick as the Post Office Directory and as
closely printed as the law notices in the newspaper, elucidating all these
intricate questions. Often when I thought of this I could make no answer or
only a very foolish and halting one upon which he used to smile and nod his
head twice or thrice. Sometimes he used to put me through the responses of the
Mass which he had made me learn by heart; and, as I pattered, he used to smile
pensively and nod his head, now and then pushing huge pinches of snuff up each
nostril alternately. When he smiled he used to uncover his big discoloured
teeth and let his tongue lie upon his lower lip—a habit which had made me feel
uneasy in the beginning of our acquaintance before I knew him well.
As I walked along in the sun I remembered old Cotter's words and tried
to remember what had happened afterwards in the dream. I remembered that I had
noticed long velvet curtains and a swinging lamp of antique fashion. I felt
that I had been very far away, in some land where the customs were strange—in
Persia, I thought…But I could not remember the end of the dream.
In the evening my aunt took me with her to visit the house of mourning.
It was after sunset; but the window-panes of the houses that looked to the west
reflected the tawny gold of a great bank of clouds. Nannie received us in the
hall; and, as it would have been unseemly to have shouted at her, my aunt shook
hands with her for all. The old woman pointed upwards interrogatively and, on
my aunt's nodding, proceeded to toil up the narrow staircase before us, her
bowed head being scarcely above the level of the banister-rail. At the first
landing she stopped and beckoned us forward encouragingly towards the open door
of the dead-room. My aunt went in and the old woman, seeing that I hesitated to
enter, began to beckon to me again repeatedly with her hand.
I went in on tiptoe. The room through the lace end of the blind was
suffused with dusky golden light amid which the candles looked like pale thin
flames. He had been coffined. Nannie gave the lead and we three knelt down at the
foot of the bed. I pretended to pray but I could not gather my thoughts because
the old woman's mutterings distracted me. I noticed how clumsily her skirt was
hooked at the back and how the heels of her cloth boots were trodden down all
to one side. The fancy came to me that the old priest was smiling as he lay
there in his coffin.
But no. When we rose and went up to the head of the bed I saw that he
was not smiling. There he lay, solemn and copious, vested as for the altar, his
large hands loosely retaining a chalice. His face was very truculent, grey and
massive, with black cavernous nostrils and circled by a scanty white fur. There
was a heavy odour in the room—the flowers.
We crossed ourselves and came away. In the little room downstairs we
found Eliza seated in his arm-chair in state. I groped my way towards my usual
chair in the corner while Nannie went to the sideboard and brought out a
decanter of sherry and some wine-glasses. She set these on the table and
invited us to take a little glass of wine. Then, at her sister's bidding, she
filled out the sherry into the glasses and passed them to us. She pressed me to
take some cream crackers also but I declined because I thought I would make too
much noise eating them. She seemed to be somewhat disappointed at my refusal
and went over quietly to the sofa where she sat down behind her sister. No one
spoke: we all gazed at the empty fireplace.
My aunt waited until Eliza sighed and then said:
“Ah, well, he's gone to a better world.”
Eliza sighed again and bowed her head in assent. My aunt fingered the
stem of her wine-glass before sipping a little.
“Did he…peacefully?” she asked.
“Oh, quite peacefully, ma'am,” said Eliza. “You couldn't tell when the
breath went out of him. He had a beautiful death, God be praised.”
“And everything…?”
“Father O'Rourke was in with him a Tuesday and anointed him and prepared
him and all.”
“He knew then?”
“He was quite resigned.”
“He looks quite resigned,” said my aunt.
“That's what the woman we had in to wash him said. She said he just
looked as if he was asleep, he looked that peaceful and resigned. No one would
think he'd make such a beautiful corpse.”
“Yes, indeed,” said my aunt.
She sipped a little more from her glass and said:
“Well, Miss Flynn, at any rate it must be a great comfort for you to
know that you did all you could for him. You were both very kind to him, I must
say.”
Eliza smoothed her dress over her knees.
“Ah, poor James!” she said. “God knows we done all we could, as poor as
we are—we wouldn't see him want anything while he was in it.”
Nannie had leaned her head against the sofa-pillow and seemed about to
fall asleep.
“There's poor Nannie,” said Eliza, looking at her, “she's wore out. All
the work we had, she and me, getting in the woman to wash him and then laying
him out and then the coffin and then arranging about the Mass in the chapel.
Only for Father O'Rourke I don't know what we'd done at all. It was him brought
us all them flowers and them two candlesticks out of the chapel and wrote out
the notice for the Freeman's General and took charge of all
the papers for the cemetery and poor James's insurance.”
“Wasn't that good of him?” said my aunt.
Eliza closed her eyes and shook her head slowly.
“Ah, there's no friends like the old friends,” she said, “when all is
said and done, no friends that a body can trust.”
“Indeed, that's true,” said my aunt. “And I'm sure now that he's gone to
his eternal reward he won't forget you and all your kindness to him.”
“Ah, poor James!” said Eliza. “He was no great trouble to us. You
wouldn't hear him in the house any more than now. Still, I know he's gone and
all to that…”
“It's when it's all over that you'll miss him,” said my aunt.
“I know that,” said Eliza. “I won't be bringing him in his cup of
beef-tea any more, nor you, ma'am, sending him his snuff. Ah, poor James!”
She stopped, as if she were communing with the past and then said
shrewdly:
“Mind you, I noticed there was something queer coming over him latterly.
Whenever I'd bring in his soup to him there I'd find him with his breviary
fallen to the floor, lying back in the chair and his mouth open.”
She laid a finger against her nose and frowned: then she continued:
“But still and all he kept on saying that before the summer was over
he'd go out for a drive one fine day just to see the old house again where we
were all born down in Irishtown and
take me and Nannie with him. If we could only get one of them new-fangled
carriages that makes no noise that Father O'Rourke told him about, them with
the rheumatic wheels, for the day cheap—he said, at Johnny Rush's over the way
there and drive out the three of us together of a Sunday evening. He had his
mind set on that…Poor James!”
“The Lord have mercy on his soul!” said my aunt.
Eliza took out her handkerchief and wiped her eyes with it. Then she put
it back again in her pocket and gazed into the empty grate for some time
without speaking.
“He was too scrupulous always,” she said. “The duties of the priesthood
was too much for him. And then his life was, you might say, crossed.”
“Yes,” said my aunt. “He was a disappointed man. You could see that.”
A silence took possession of the little room and, under cover of it, I
approached the table and tasted my sherry and then returned quietly to my chair
in the corner. Eliza seemed to have fallen into a deep revery. We waited
respectfully for her to break the silence: and after a long pause she said
slowly:
“It was that chalice he broke…That was the beginning of it. Of course,
they say it was all right, that it contained nothing, I mean. But still…They
say it was the boy's fault. But poor James was so nervous, God be merciful to
him!”
“And was that it?” said my aunt. “I heard something…”
Eliza nodded.
“That affected his mind,” she said. “After that he began to mope by
himself, talking to no one and wandering about by himself. So one night he was
wanted for to go on a call and they couldn't find him anywhere. They looked
high up and low down; and still they couldn't see a sight of him anywhere. So
then the clerk suggested to try the chapel. So then they got the keys and
opened the chapel and the clerk and Father O'Rourke and another priest that was
there brought in a light for to look for him…And what do you think but there he
was, sitting up by himself in the dark in his confession-box, wide-awake and
laughing-like softly to himself?”
She stopped suddenly as if to listen. I too listened; but there was no
sound in the house: and I knew that the old priest was lying still in his
coffin as we had seen him, solemn and truculent in death, an idle chalice on
his breast.
Eliza resumed:
“Wide-awake and laughing-like to himself…So then, of course, when they saw that, that made them think that there was something gone wrong with him…”
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